Cinta!!

We need to meet up fast!!

Both of us need to gossips about all the MQ's & th 'headband' thingy(u know i know)

Cant wait for Thursday!!!

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I feel so hopeless

I feel terrible

I feel horrible

I feel so mean

I feel like the worst person on earth

I feel like the worst girlfriend ever

Maybe, i am the worst

Gawd!

I dont wish to state what happened here.

I bet all of you would hate me if you knew what happened.

I realised it was my fault

You hate me.. do you?

Im sorry

Maybe sorry doesnt make up for the mistake ive done

Maybe your feeling regret.

Maybe..

Maybe not..

Im sorry

Maybe you should just leave me alone...

right from the start...

Maybe...

I guess you ain't gonna call tonight

Im sorry farhan..

I know ive been getting on your nerves lately

Im sorry..

i really am.. :(

That Farhan lost his phone yesterday.

Th phone your seeing above. Yeah! that phone.

Expensive kan that phone.

Haiyo!

Stupid stealer!

Low Lifes!

So heartless!

Before steal must think la, if he got girlfriend. Skali he want to semes2 his girfie, later pity th girlfie..

And and that phone got my long2 msgs..

And and got my pic. and our pic..

Haiyo!

And and, baby's phone want to say hello, rosak. Must shout2.

PADAN MUKE whoever yang take!! hahahahah

Wahpiang! So geram sia. Now, i no one to semes2 with.

That guy everytime lost his phone.

See! i told you, my phone yg bkn touch screen, yg mcm biase, yg Sony Ericsson K770i tu, yang kamu cakap tak gune tu la, yg tak kene curik. hahahha.

See! Th moral of the story is, never kutok your girlfriend nye phone. The new isnt always good.

neh ni neh ni poo poo! hahahahahaha.

Ok, i better stop. Im being a bad girlfie alrdy. :D

Been rotting at home for th past few days.

Gawd!

Thank god ill be going for band practice later.

Hopefully today band practice goes well.

Mr Tan doesnt flare up..

*hoping*

gtg!

chao! :)

Happy 10monthsary dearest!

Time flies fast. And ta-daa! 10 months already.

Im soooo looking forward to our 12months which is like 2 months away.

Gawd! I cant believe we've come this far.

Well, ill keep my 'speech' for our 12months.

Happy 10 months baby!

I love you effing much!

xoxo

Today marks November 1st.

Which indicates that i only have 1month and few more days left before i get my results.

Yesterday, ive begun to felt worried.

Worried not because i'll fail badly.

Which i dont think i'll fail badly, because i studied till late.

But, im worried because, if i don't proceed to sec 5, i'll be letting down those people who have faith in me.. including those people in my MSN list which i havent met before but became friends online. Its weird how they dont even know you or know the real you but still have faith in you..

But, thanks.

Back to story.. I really really wanna proceed up to sec 5.

If possible, i dont wanna retain. Because i know that i cant really clique with next year sec 4 batch. (no offence)

And because i dont wanna go thru another round of SYF.

Im willing to go to ITE if things doesnt go the way i wanted.

But im also willing to just take private O.

I really dont wanna think about the worst that can happen, but i just cant help it.

There are advantages & disadvantages if i choose either one of them.

If i go to ITE, baby says things between us will be different. And i dont know why his saying that. Partly because he thinks i'll fall for another guy if i go to ITE. But if our love is strong, i bet i wont fall for another guy. If baby trusts me, things wont go wrong. right?

If i take private O, people say it'll be very tough..

Haiyo!

Ok, i think i should stop worrying about this thingy. And just enjoy.

Lets stop thinking about the worst.

Ok, i must have faith in myself.

Ok, i know i can go up sec 5. :)

*breathe in, breathe out.*

Hey people!

I was searching for something in th net untill i saw this at staree..

Gosh! Effing sad!! Im soooo against abortion. Like can you imagine th baby thinks that way?? Like omg, so kesian.. So, young mothers out there, NEVER NEVER ABORT YOUR BABIES!! Okok, GO READ! :)

Month One.
Hi Mommy!

I am only 3/4 of an inch long, But I have all my organs.

I love the sound of your voice.

Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs.

The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two.
Mommy,

Today I learned how to suck my thumb.

If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby.

I’m not big enough to survive outside my home though.

It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three.

You know what Mommy,

I’m a boy!

I hope that makes you happy.

I always want you to be happy.

I don’t like it when you cry.

You sound so sad.

It makes me sad too,

And I cry with you even though you can’t hear me.

Mommy,

My hair is starting to grow.

It is very short and fine

But I will have a lot of it.

I spend a lot of my time exercising.

I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs.

I am becoming quite good at it too.

You went to the doctor today.

Mommy, he lied to you.

He said that I’m not a baby.

I am a baby, Mommy, your baby.

I think and feel.

Mommy, what’s abortion?

Month Six.
I can hear that doctor again.

I don’t like him.

He seems cold and heartless.

Something is intruding my home.

The doctor called it a needle.

Mommy what is it?

It burns!

Please make him stop!

I can’t get away from it!

Mommy!

Help me!

Month Seven.
Mommy,

I am okay.

I am in God's arms.

He is holding me.

He told me about abortion.

Why didn’t you want me, Mommy?